Music makes me think the most. When an artist takes the time to make lyrics that will be remembered is beautiful.

There are plenty of songs that do not mean anything but a simple tap of foot it triggers you to do.
TwentyOnePilots released their recent album title “Blurryface”. This band is one which always has offered rich poetry in the context of the songs. Thought is provoked and new ideas formed.

I am not a profesional blogger, I just wish to attain that same level of song writing grace here and in songs as the mighty duo in this band, TwentyOnePilots.

Thinking is both amazing and troubling at times. To sometimes create something from nothing in the complexity of imagination.

Drowning yourself in thought is scary because it is powerful enough to keep you in thought until you break somewhere in your mind or body.
How far the thought goes is all depending on who holds the key to the mind.

Some minds do not have their keys with their owners, some have drifted so far, only thought itself can come to and end before they find the missing again.

Nonsense? Do you think I am wrong? But simply at this moment, you as a reader trying to understand the means to my writing, or if I am wrong or if I am correct. But simply thinking an answer to this simple task of reading some random persons blog post. Think, as you read this. Are they your thoughts on what you base your judgement on? Or are the thoughts someones’ thought carved into your mind. And if you do have your mind sharply pierced by all of the other minds, then how did you get to this point.
Where did you leave your key for your mind? The mind that dreamed thoughts of their future. The mind that made them take initiative to go out of their way to help others rather than themselves. Again, these are just thoughts coming from my mind. You have a key, well, hopefully you still have a key. Because each thought has a key. Complexity of thought is beautiful.

I am no profesional, I simply live in thought and feel every word people say. The smallest grain of thought is embraced by my mind.



“There is a time in every man’s education when he arrives at the conviction that envy is ignorance; that imitation is suicide; that he must take himself for better, for worse, as his portion; that though the wide universe is full of good, no kernel of nourishing corn can come to him but through his toil bestowed on that plot of ground which is given to him to till.”

-Ralph Waldo Emerson, Self Reliance

Posting on this blog has been a irregular action. Only when I reach a new understanding, feeling, or motives in my life, is when I truly express my emotions.

The above quote is by one of my favorite thinkers. One who founded the ways of many Transcendentalists to come.

I have followed these words carefully, though have not achieved this mindset in the quote. With the insight of this perspective I find I have improved my life.

Recently, I received a promotion at my workplace. I have not celebrated. Deep down I am full of joy, yet another side in that deep end is fully numb.

I cannot feel. The joy is drowned by distractions. The peace is overthrown by blinding imitation, Trying to fit into a place that was once of a king. Where respect was shown in a different light.

My full dedication is now based on the foundation left for myself to keep. Changing any pieces will end up breaking the most fragile object. And no one like breaking fragile objects. Fragile object are fragile for a reason, to be taken care of in a special way or form. Like my heart, it is placed in a secure location to stay fragile and not be broken by change of love and all of what this cruel mind has to offer.

This does not make any sense but it does. Because my mind is telling my heart that is has a meaning and a type of purpose in which make me feel somewhat fulfilled or proud of what I am.

I will not post this. It shows too much of my strength and weakness.
Maybe I will read this later and have the courage to post.

I want to feel Alive.
I do, but I don’t.

Update, I had the courage. I want people to see how I have grown. How I think. Maybe I will guide someone’s growth in any form of life.

Music From An Anxious Heart

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Bump in The Road

There is always that bump in the today when you start something and you see no growth come from it.

That teenage boy who is trying to learn piano, but after two days sees no dexterity. That high school girl who wants to be on the cheerleading squad, yet she places such a heavy care on the dirty looks the girls give her and does not try.

In these two situations it may seem that they should choose something new. However, how many times can you start over and seek a new project. Have you felt like this before? I have, well, I am. This feeling is constant in many of our lives.

The true question is how are you going to go around that feeling?

Practice more, eat less, care less, care more? What will it be?

Maybe it starts with passion. That spark of energy you have that you can do it. Then transform that into a desire of what it could be. Create it into a want. Grasp it with all your hope that may occur. Thrive to reach the final goal.

You can do it.

My want is to complete college and be someone, someone happy.

Doesn’t everything lead to happiness? To learn to play an instrument, so you may show your family, your family tells others, others tell you great job, and that makes an emotion! What emotion is that, maybe pride or gratefulness? But like element of water if you break them down it is oxygen and hydrogen. Same thing with these emotions. Doesn’t it all come down to happiness?

So the answer to all is to be happy?

So the teenage boy just wants to be happy and play the piano, and the cheerleader wants to cheer and be happy too?

Comment your opinion. The good thing is to be open minded and have a sight that is not narrow to block anyone’s thoughts.

Please share what you think.

Awaking from Dark Slumber

Fear is something that comes often in life. Usually, when a step is taken to the unknown. Those moments are scary and seem to change our lives the most.

I don’t know if I am going through one of those stages that I feel alone and yet to find a purpose worth living for. How many people have felt like this before? At this point I feel that everything that has been learned has to be questioned. Who am I?

This entire time, people telling me constantly, who I am supposed to be or what is expected.

-To study
-Get a career
-Be a Good person

These are good things, yet they are just enforced these days without clear meaning or a definition from the individual. No sense of a “self” is created.

For these three stated above are common. Every reason leads to a common good. But what is that “good”?

In my “good” the reasons are:

-To study because it will make me an educated person, so I can surpass the last generation in some form.
-Get a career, so I may not have to struggle with the need. And help the needy.
-Be a good person so others can respect me and live with peace.

These are my general answers in which I find myself struggling in. Because all of these find it to go to the end. All the means used to get to this end are taught to us. We have to question these ourselves. Because here it seems that happiness is the motive for everything.

-To study, will bring happiness because I will know things and be able to share with people knowledge.
-Get a career so we can provide our procreation and have a happy life.
-Be a good person because it will cause a joy to know you are respected.

This fear felt is “good”. Because everyone has their view on it. It causes growth if you let it.

By the Grace of God I am what I
am, and his grace to me was not
without effect.
1 Corinthians 15:10

While taught many of these expectations, I am trying to find that meaning. I am awaking from slumber. Not letting everything pass by anymore. We all have great potential in life and we cannot let everyone express themselves for our “self”.

What do you think? Do you let your friends influence everything you do? Your parents? Even society in general?

Will you start to let yourself think and find a meaning for life? I am trying to encourage you to choose to think. Because what good would it be to be told what is the “good”? We have to strive to find it.

Joe P
AMP Movement

Jp here

This isn’t joe, I’m joes sister (: I’m three years younger than him. Well today was my 5th basketball game and its the fourth time I haven’t played -_-
I was going to get ready to quit but its the motivation that I need more of.
I just need to keep going and not drop out because I know if I do I would always wonder “what if I didn’t quit?”
But I’m completely clueless when I’m in the game!! some of our games are like:

Coach: Parra! Watch the ball!
Meh: *gets ball, freaks out and passes ball away. Tries to move and ends up falling on the floor*
Coach and team: ouch..

Yeah it’s crazy, I understand the plays but I can’t seem to fit the pieces together. Then on top of that there’s physics and geometry I have to worry about! No time for playing Pokemon /: my typhlosion is a level 70 though :3
Geometry isn’t hard its super easy. I never do my homework but I always get A’s for all my geometry tests. And physics I just don’t understand. I memorized that an object in motion tends to stay in motion unless acted upon a moving object. But I don’t understand the formulas and how they work.

But that’s just schoolwork. I love my friends and everyone (: they never mind me and think I’m funny and pretty somehow… O.o

Well I’m going to the mall with my bro so yeah I’ll catch up to anyone later :3
Jp Atireme 😀